Nemesis & Themis

Pierre-Paul Prud'hon

Pierre-Paul Prud'hon

The shapes and scratches on the floor

Cease to have magic

And most things, in fact, cease to have magic

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… In the course of nature…

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Once we have ceased to see magic in the world

We’re no longer fulfilling Nature’s game

Of being aware of itself

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There’s no point in it anymore

And so we die

- Alan Watts 💎🥀

Is that all there is? 🔥🫂💀

I remember when I was a girl
Our house caught on fire
And I'll never forget the look on my father's face
As he gathered me in his arms
And raced to the burning building out on the pavement

And I stood there shivering
And watched the whole world go up in flames
And when it was all over, I said to myself
Is that all there is to a fire? Is that all there is?

Is that all there is? If that's all there is
My friends, then let's keep dancing
Let's break out the booze and have a ball
If that's all there is

And when I was twelve years old
My daddy took me to the circus
The greatest show on Earth
And there were clowns and elephants
Dancing bears and a beautiful lady
In pink tights flew high above our heads

And as I sat there watching
I had the feeling that something was missing
I don't know what but when it was all over
I said to myself, is that all there is to the circus?

Is that all there is? If that's all there is
My friends, then let's keep dancing
Let's break out the booze and have a ball
If that's all there is

And then I fell in love
With the most wonderful boy in the world
We'd take long walks down by the river
Or just sit for hours gazing into each other's eyes

We were so very much in love
And then one day he went away
And I'd thought I'd die but I didn't
And when I didn't, I said to myself
Is that all there is to love?

I know what you must be saying to yourselves
If that's the way she feels about it
Then why doesn't she just end it all
Oh no, not me, I'm not ready for the final disappointment

'Cause I know just as well
As I'm standing here talking to you
That when that final moment comes
And I'm breathing my last breath
I know what I'll be saying to myself
Is that all there is?

Is that all there is? If that's all there is
My friends, then let's keep dancing
Let's break out the booze and have a ball
If that's all there is

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Michael Kiwanuka - My Cold Little Heart

Did you ever want it?
Did you want it bad?
Oh my, it tears me apart

Did you ever fight it?
All of the pain
So much pride
Running through my veins

Bleeding, I'm bleeding!
My cold little heart
Oh I, I can't stand myself

And I know in my heart
In this cold heart
I can live or I can die
I believe if I just try
You believe in you and I

Did you ever notice
I've been ashamed?
All my life
I've been playing games

We can try to hide it
It's all the same
I've been losing you
One day at a time

In my heart, in this cold heart
I can live or I can die
I believe if I just try
You believe in you and I

Maybe this time I can be strong
But since I know who I am
I'm probably wrong

Maybe this time I can go far
Thinking about where I've been
Ain't helping me start

Depression

I felt a Funeral, in my Brain,
And Mourners to and fro
Kept treading - treading - till it seemed
That Sense was breaking through -

And when they all were seated,
A Service, like a Drum -
Kept beating - beating - till I thought

My mind was going numb -

And then I heard them lift a Box
And creak across my Soul
With those same Boots of Lead, again,

Then Space - began to toll,

As all the Heavens were a Bell,
And Being, but an Ear,
And I, and Silence, some strange Race,

Wrecked, solitary, here -

And then a Plank in Reason, broke,
And I dropped down, and down -
And hit a World, at every plunge,
And Finished knowing - then -

- Emily Dickinson

- Francisco Goya

- Francisco Goya

I 💗 You, Mom

Grieving is a normal process. However, it can worsen your quality of life and involve more serious symptoms when it lasts for a long time. These symptoms can include:

  • a powerful pain when you think of your lost loved one

  • a heightened focus on reminders of your lost loved one

  • an overall feeling of numbness

  • a feeling of bitterness when you think about your loss

  • a loss of purpose or motivation

  • a loss of trust in friends, family, and acquaintances

  • an inability to enjoy life


What is complicated grief?

Grief is a normal, expected set of emotions that can occur after the loss of a loved one. However, some people experience a more significant and longer-lasting level of grief. This is known as complicated grief. 

Complicated grief may share many of the same symptoms of depression. It can also lead to depression, or worsen depression in someone who already experiences it.

Causes of complicated grief

CG is most commonly caused by the death of someone you love. If your significant other or a close family member dies suddenly, you may have trouble accepting your loss. You may feel intense sadness for years. Your relationships with friends, family, and coworkers may suffer. You may even completely withdraw from your personal and professional life. 

CG doesn’t have any identified biological causes. Like depression, it may happen because of:

  • genetics

  • body chemistry

  • personality

  • your environment


https://www.healthline.com/health/depression/death-loved-one#grief-vs-depression

Goodbye Horses 🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴 🗡🪁

He told me, "I see you rise"
But, it always falls
I see you come, I see you go
He say, "All things pass into the night"
And I say, "Oh no sir I must say you're wrong
I must disagree, oh no sir, I must say you're wrong"
Won't you listen to me

He told me, I've seen it all before
I've been there, I've seen my hopes and dreams
A lying on the ground
I've seen the sky just begin to fall
He say, "All things pass into the night"
And I say, "Oh no sir, I must say you're wrong
I must disagree, oh no sir, I must say you're wrong"
Won't you listen to me

Goodbye horses I'm flying over you

Dissociation👾💥🌪🪨

How To Disappear Completely and Never Be Found

That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please

I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah, it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening

I'm not here
I'm not…

Hopelessness

Hope there's someone who'll take care of me
When I die, will I go?
Hope there's someone who'll set my heart free
Nice to hold when I'm tired

There's a ghost on the horizon
When I go to bed
How can I fall asleep at night
How will I rest my head?

Oh, I'm scared of the middle place
Between light and nowhere
I don't want to be the one
Left in there, left in there

There's a man on the horizon
Wish that I'd go to bed
If I fall to his feet tonight
Will I rest my head?

So here's hoping I will not drown